My birthday is in one week. One week until I am 23 too old to be in college and too old to be on health insurance. I guess by now “they” think I am healthy and educated. Unfortunately, that is probably not true. For my birthday I would like to sit around all day with no pants on doing absolutely nothing. Unfortunately I will be seeing clients all day. Maybe I can go out to lunch or something. My new variation on lunch was almost good today…but still too healthy to be really inspiring. If only yogurt V8 juice and jello could taste more like a baked potato and pluckers wings. Hopefully today I will get to see Josh and FINALLY give him the brownies. I am rather tired today though. I brought my MGU just in case…but I’m sure I will be promptly escorted out at his earliest convenience. Hrmph. I’m getting my haircut today so hopefully it will stop being so boring and flat. Maybe this will help to boost my pathetically low self esteem. Seriously…it’s not fun being both fat and hugry at the same time. I’d gladly be hungry all the time if only I was thin!

I’ve had a headache all day. I’ve also been all anxious and overly sensitive today…it’s been really annoying. I feel like just going to bed but I’m really not tired. I thought Josh and I were supposed to hang out tonight, but he’s still working and not answering his phone so I guess that means we’re not. I don’t know what to do with those stupid brownies though, I guess I’ll just throw them out if he doesn’t want them by tomorrow. I’m not going to eat them. The last thing I need right now is a brownie. I saw a picture of me today taken during camp and I look so disgustingly fat. I couldn’t believe it! How did I let myself look start looking like this? It’s seriously gross. So I guess I just won’t be eating for a while. Too bad…I really do enjoy eating. But you know…I’d rather not look fat and disgusting in my clothes…not to mention naked.

Another weekend has come and gone and I’m almost getting used to this work schedule. It just sucks that Mondays are so boring. Nothing to do except shop. I tried to find a black dress today…but I’m glad I didn’t because my spending is so tight at the first part of the month. Maybe after the 15th I’ll go to the mall. I’m not exactly sure why I am so convinced I need a black dress….but I am. I’m doing pretty okay at sticking to the diet. I threw out my last piece of cake. No need to eat it…or so I told myself. And I only snitched one of the brownie’s I made for Josh today. It would be sinful not to! Grocery shopping at the HEB was far superior to the Super walmart. I only went there today to get my face wash and cleaning stuff. So overall it was a good day, although for it only being 10pm I’m pretty sleepy…but I guess I woke up at 830.

I’m going to make a “romance” play list for my ipod to play on my new stereo…I’m very excited about the prospects!